this entry was prompted by my best friend's blog entry where she praised her fiancee, soon to be husband, for being a real man. i am truly happy to know her and also lily are going to get married soon, and i could even have the oppotunity to attend her wedding, and give her my hand-picked gift , a very romantic thing.
so yes there are also things i am not so happy about, i can make them very brief--too many dreams and distrubed repose,not enough offers to keep myself busy enough, too lazy to even finish the thin bok i started, and too bad a temper that drives myself and also other people nuts.
yet there are more i think people may envy--tons of free time to spend with an increasingly smart child, no need to meet any timeline, could afford to stay at home for days, except going shopping for foodstuff without worrying about money in the card; parents' house complete with credit taken by me, no bragging; better health than the beginning of thi Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I like it that ways year, no worry about skills getting rusty since facts prove that uncalled for;
what i think worth highlighting here is that fact i realized i am growing to become a bit more mature in handling relationship, and Steve is getting better in dealing with me, though he has been very tolerant to some of my very nasty but uncontrolled traits. the $2k expense, now in hindsight, proves to be well worth it.

And if I changed my mindA million times
I wanna hear him say
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I like it that way

i know i am no longer in an age to behave that way, and indeed changing mind is natural for any women, i finally can make fewere presumptions, and relax the mind alert a little bit, sit down and lay back and smile, learning to let the past go,

so i should also say thanks to my little chubby for all the joys she brought to me, and also people around her, and merci beaucoup to steve for always being there, to be at the receving end of my trash mood products.