so it is christmas again, and it means little for a non religious beliver, i write this entry because i asked myself the question the same time last year how i would feel now, and now i feel pretty much empty and my mind has been blank for quite a long time. my life changes too quick for me to understand. and too many things have happened since last holiday. now i got something precious, i got responsibilty and i got a whole new world to live in.

i made my choice early this year, so for better or for worse, i must do what i need to do.