有在高峰的时候，自然也有低谷徘回的时候。那个经营酒类广告作的好好的人决定削发为尼，云游四海。原谅我不懂道与佛，但是我奇怪一点的是现在还有云游的可能吗？又或者我入世太深？ 不明白红尘之内依然有净土，熙熙攘攘的街头还是有出世的闲人行踪？

跟一个在法国学艺术史的人聊了一会，发现自己还是很没劲，总是担心未来不可控的变化和状况，又或者是圣经中那段话白记了。

"Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself." - Matthew 6:34

Ps 42:5 (NIV) Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

今晚回去做晚饭，然后洗碗，然后坐下来看看圣诞礼物的书，安然入梦，之前最好写写日记，

照顾好自己的心灵。

this should be the last one for year 2006. for a chinese, it is almost a habit that has been built in the genes--new year comes when the real Lunar new year knocks at the door.

also remember that V day falls close to the new year. but to me it means little. flowers and chocolates are too commercial, in a similar fasion, mooncake price experices a huge hike and plummting at certain time, to the poor, the 16th, not the 15th, is the Middle autumn festival. so v day is just another day. to me, not one day seems to be so important that i could remember without reminding myself to.

and then it is spring festival. i take it more as a break, a chance to leave BJ, to visit some places, to get close to nature again. meeting my family is great, though i did not know actually there is a soft spot in my heart reserved for them until teh day before.

a revealing , or rather, a inspiring night talking , with tears and hatred, and smiles, helped me realize that how desperate i need to change my life and how hopeless i am when i face the reality.

if there is something magic about new year resolution, then i wish i could be stronger, more brave, change for the better, and make decisions that i will not rue for.

i thank Zhangyue for the wonderful gift, and how immensely i enjoy when i hold Lici , patting her and stroking her back, and how wonderful when i see her following me , purring and miauling. this closeness is not easy to get. but the one month waiting is really paid off.